What can I do?

I just realized a little bit ago that I'm screwed when it comes to paying for college. I've got a little bit of money saved up, but I'm not sure how much I'll get from the government to help. Hocking in one quarter will cost me at least $3000. Probably closer to $5000 to be honest. My grandma and parents are both tapped out as cosigners for loans, and my aunt and uncle probably won't do anything either. That leaves me with a couple of options: Stay out of school for a year to save up money to go away to school, or join the military (which will still probably require me to not be in school for a year so I can get in shape for it). I'm probably just going to take a year off, much against my desire to just stay in school, to try and save up the money so I don't have to take out a student loan.

AND Hocking's tuition increased to about $106, around where LCCC is. So I'm really not saving any money. And besides, I might have to take a year off anyway so I can go to Italy when I'm more along in my culinary education. I guess they only go every other year, and they're supposed to go next year, during my second or third quarter (out of 6 total quarters). I need to consider that as well.

I won't make any decision like this until after I visit Hocking and get my FAFSA info back to see what I qualify for. If I get the $5000 a quarter like I'll need, then Hocking is definitely in my sights for September. If not...I'll likely be taking the year off.

I hate being an adult...and being financially screwed by my siblings.

Weekend Update

Since my last blog I did I have dropped my two on-campus classes...which really depresses me. I miss photography something awful, and math too. However, i think this will work out better for me. This way I can still get the sleep I need, and work the hours I need to. Its just gonna suck when softball season comes along, because with it comes 2 additional classes. Oh boy.

I'm still missing "him," but he hasn't been on my mind as much. I'm just trying to stay busy so I'm not thinking about "him" as much.

I'm also missing my friends a TON!!! We never get to hang out and talk. I wish we all weren't so busy with work and school and stuff. I guess that's life though? I really need to hang out with everyone.

I'm SUPER excited that I get to visit Hocking in less then a week!!! It will be the decision making visit, even though I'm 99.99% sure that I want to go to Hocking.

Kind of short and sweet I guess, but this is all!